Opa

    –Van klein naar groot en omgekeerd-   Ik ben een Klein-kleinkind en jij bent een Grote Opa. Je komt helpen in het huis en de tuin. Met taart. De geur van sigaren betekent dat jij er bent.   Ik ben een tiener en meer gefocust op vrienden. Ik zie je vooral op familiefeesten….

10-day Fast Findings, part 2.0

DAY 6 – Friday, March 24 I feel weak and I don’t like feeling weak. My morning routine didn’t go as I am used to it an now I am postponing meditating and yoga. Everything feels like such an effort. I feel emotional. Small, unimportant remarks bruise me. Why? I am tired. I want to…

10-day Fast Findings, part 1.0

DAY 1 – Sunday, March 19 This is easy. No cravings. No real hunger. Got in a nice yoga and meditation session this morning. Still feel energised. Yes! Must be because I’ve eaten so much yesterday. If every day can be like this, I will pass with flying colours :). A recurring thought does come…

Be like a dog

Last weekend was super relaxing. I liked it sooo much. I planned to go on a biking trip but missed the taxi in the end. At first there was a bit of disappointment. “They didn’t wait for me?”. But soon I was quite happy with how things rolled. Believing that the Universe always gives me what…

Choosing freedom

Being here is the challenge. Makes me uncomfortable. Brings me of balance. Not too much, just slightly out of my comfort zone. Enough to give me the necessary push to ask myself questions, make changes. Work. Think. So I stay. The students are teachers. We are all outcasts in this Magical Mountain School of Martial…

On the road to Kunyu Shan

January 14, 2017. The start of a new adventure. Surprisingly I felt quite relaxed most of the day. My flight only left late at night so we had time to visit Opa at noon to have lunch. It was a funny sight: Opa, mom and me, 3 generations taking a little nap after lunch. It…

It’s that time of year …

New Year’s resolutions can be a pitfall. They can contain big plans. Big plans come with big expectations. Big expectations can create big stress. Stephie and stress … hmmm, well let’s say that’s not a pretty picture you want to start a New Year with 😉 So my New Year’s resolution is: no new year’s…

Balancing “Be”-ing

being happy, being sad all in 1 day that is Life, I say to you, so you can relate and have faith that however down or low you feel life’s just a wheel that keeps on spinning and spinning there’s no losing nor is there winning really if you just stop and “be” if you…

Hey, I love you

Hey, I love you and I shouldn’t be afraid of it. Hey, I love you and even though you might feel different I am saying it. Hey, I love you and my stomach is feeling like a knot right now. I feel happy and sad and I hope the friendship is gonna survive somehow. Because…

It’s ON

What is? LIFE is moddafuckaaaaz !! Yes! In all this craziness of waiting, planning, organizing, working towards something (or even someone?), analysing, thinking … LIFE is happening. Stupid. I feel stupid sometimes not realising this. I am so freaking fortunate. Can go wherever, whenever and I would be upset if it doesn’t roll how I…

Underwater treasure

My mind wanders My attention span flounders Sometimes I can do one minute Sometimes ten But not when I’ve got major things on my mind Those of the kind That make you feel like pressure Like an underwater treasure Waiting on the bottom of the ocean Waiting for a motion That opens you up, Letting…

Just so you know …

Just so you know: I come with baggage A whole lot So sometimes I’m down and sometimes I’m not Forever in search of balance Finding that inner peace Seems my life’s challenge The higher my highs The lower my lows Wish i could tell you when But that’s not how it goes I feel a…